This is the post where I apologize. For not being around much, for not really posting even though I'm in grade-a hermit mode right now, for almost not giving a shit that the weather's taken a turn for the pleasant, for making sport out of and maintaining semi-detached interest in the art of "not taking proper care of myself" and then watching with great curiosity as I deteriorate into a big-banged world fallen out with nasty coughs and throbbing migraines and fever dreams, for not seeing a doctor out of general distrust for doctors, for vampire nights and zombie mornings, for an ongoing flux-state where fear-of-sleep (or inability, for that matter) changes up with x-treme fatigue and bad craziness. Sorry.